Saturday, October 18, 2014

Day Thirty

I am currently in the hospital again this time it's taking a lot longer to get me back to health, I have been here for the past 30 days and still I'm still here.; At the rate I'm going I could become a resident of the hospital. My patience is running thin now since  I'm an Isolation patient( I have MRSA in my nose which is not serious but it could be pass on) I can't leave the floor I'm in, this means that I can only walk around the unit(or the nurses station) which is not much of a walk as you can imagine, and I can only see the outside world threw my window since I have so much time in my hands I have learn to crochet a few things maybe I'll take a picture latter and post it here, I also draw and color to past the time I have try to keep my self busy but now that i been here for so long it has become useless in entertaining me all I want is to go outside at least for a minute or two just to feel the air in my face. My contact with the world outside is only threw my family that comes to visit, I have try to keep my self calm but i't's really hard when you have nothing to do but see outside my window.

I also started this blog because I want to be able to reach out to other people even if it's threw this blog. I spend a lot of my time  in front of my computer( thank god for technology and for free Wi-Fi) It has become my only entertainment and even thought I love it at times like this I can loath it too. One thing I find really interesting about being here inside the hospital is the staff you know the doctors, the nurses, the CNA's(nurses assistants), and even the cleaning crew they all seem to spend a lot of time inside the hospital some because they really don't have a choice since they have to work but some (like the cleaning crews) just hang around to either gossip or wait for a friend that has fallen behind in paper work and it's trying to play catch up. I seen how the nurses flirt with each other and try to hook up and even seen a nurse droll over a doctor. I think that since the nurses spend a great deal of time in the hospital, most of them have a twelve hour shifts three or four times a week they really don't have time to meet people outside their working environment so they tend to pick from around the hospital, I once ask my nurse if it was difficult maintaining a relationship with a co-worker and the answer was that at time it was but the real trouble was when the relationship didn't work out or ended badly the whole hospital knew about it (thanks cleaning crew) and you get to see them around all the time. 

I think that the time I have been spending here has really help me appreciate all the little things I do on a daily basis that I can't do here like walk outside to water the plants and get the mail or just do laundry. I'm going to keep on writing hopefully I'll get into a habit of doing so like I use to do and post often Please if you read this leave a comment if only to say hello I'll appreciate anyone taking the time to read this. I'll post soon bye...

Wednesday, October 8, 2014

About me

The Pink Magnolia Diaries 

A little about me

I'm an eighties child meaning that I was born in the fist part of the 80's. My mother work in an open air market at a food stall and my father work for a bus line as a ticket verification officer, back then my parents seem to be happy and getting along great until one day while I came from school my mother had made our suitcases and told me that we were leaving only to go to my aunt's house which was in another state, well that was the last time I ever saw my father.He never try to see me or reach out for me and I became one more of those children that are forgotten by their father's. my mother re marry a man a few years latter who made my life hell,and in return my mom as well. I finish High school in the beginning  of the century only to be confronted with another big challenge as it was life changing. On a normal day in the month of June I became sick of course I was taken to our nearest E.R where they inform me of my kidney failure. I was surprise since I had always try to be healthy and had my annual check up's, but nothing had ever been wrong with any of my labs of anything so to our surprise I had to star Dialysis with sessions every other day for three hours each. 

It has been a little over a decade since I started on this journey of trying to get better.I  had rough times and I can't lie and say it has always been easy as you might imagine but I think I have dealt with my illness better than I thought, a few years back one of my cousins got sick with the same thing and she only lasted 10 months before she passed away,I became aware of how bless I been to still be alive, I only wish had fought a little harder for her life since she had a small daughter. I fell in love at the age of  Twenty- five to a very loving man only flaw was that he was forbidden to me, and even thought I knew how much he love me I was trying to push him away until one day both of us decided to throw caution to the win and live our love we were happy for a few years but the pressure of both our families ended up breaking us apart completely, also I think it wasn't fair that I had him by my side knowing that he was unhappy and I felt he could be happier with someone else who wasn't sick as me and who spend more time in the hospital than at home. 

I'm writing this first post from my room in the hospital I have spend a total of 30 days this time due to a bad infection; Not only will I  be sharing with you what I experience here but also I will be sharing things that I find useful, it may be something I know that will help someone or an article I found on the net that I found interesting and in other times I'll share some of my feelings about a certain topic. I hope that what I share with you in my post such as this one may become a way of communication with other's, as well as learning new things that I may have oversaw before. I am thankful for anyone who read this and hopefully you will join me here ,